There are many trees in the forest. Don't sign at one tree. Try to talk with your friends or friends online. It will makes you clear how to live a better life? No one can determine your happiness, only you!!:)
Many things belongs to you ,and what you should do now is to think about your responsibilities for your family,your own future.One's life just so short that it seems it useless to think about what you've ever been addicted in,just do what you should do ,you're a man!
Believe you can stand up again having you guts fulfill in your deep heart!