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Thursday, January 03, 2008|
I became very lazy now, almost every night I go back to my room, I didn’t stay at first but watch movies, almost every night. it become a habit. I feel so shame because I have not study seriously for several months.
I think it is the high time to stop acting like that, another examination is coming at April. I should pay more attention to my study. Or else I will fail again.
Yesterday afternoon, I received a message from one classmate, she said:” Lixiong is coming to have wedding party at 6th of new year, will you come to the party.” I replied:” I won’t go if I didn’t invite, and I will think about that even I am invited.”
Lixiong, the one that has born a daughter, and don’t know what is the reason, that still didn’t have wedding party but already cohabit. I feel like most of classmate in middle school chose the same way. Cohabit and born a child first, and then go to have wedding party. And I think it is meaningless to have wedding party after that. In Chinese tradition, wedding party is a must and should be hold before marriage. And nowadays, people change its routine.
I don’t feel like to her wedding party because I dislike her. And I quite remember the things that happened between us.
At the year of 2001, I was very poor and I was a labor worker in the small factory. One day, it was my birthday, and another classmate visited me for celebration. And at that time she worked at a store that near my place. So after lunch we went to her store and visited her, she said one sentence that can never be forgotten:” If you have problem, don’t come to me, and you don’t have problem don’t come to me, either.”
As she worked at a franchised store and her salary is three times more than me, so she has the right to be superiority, I didn’t blame her for that but I was very sad.
Another time, I went to another city for working and I was very lonely. I don’t have friends in the strange city. One night, it was cold and rainy. The boss said:” we will close early and tomorrow not need to work, it is very cold.”
So I went back to that city. I have two classmates in that city and my cousin. As I mentioned, it was cold and rainy. When I arrived at that city, It was already 8pm, dark.
At first, I went to my cousin, and I said to her:” can you come down to the street as I am here.” She said:” it is too cold, I don’t like to come down.” I didn’t ask for the second time and I went to her. I reached at her store and I said:” I don’t have other place to come, can I stay with you tonight.”
She listed thousands of reason that I should not stay at her room, even she said:” you should go back to your dormitory and you should not waste the time for being here. “ I could not understood that as a classmate that I can’t stay with her for only one night. it was cold and raining outside, to where should to go? Will it a bus waiting for me to another city?
I walked out from her store and I went to another classmate for help, her place was a far away, I tried to call her first but the calling can’t get through, I was frighten, I looked into the darkness and sensed the coldness. I was cried.
However I still went to her place, I didn’t have another place to come. No bus, not motor, not taxi, I walked for one hour to arrived at her dormitory. When she saw me and cried:’ come to my bed, it is warm, you might catch a cold.”
I felt the comfort, and at last my problem solved. So since then, I didn’t like her, and I didn’t contact her. I won’t stop while seeing her and I dislike discussing something about her. She is out of my life.
If I am invited, I need to think.