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I have actually communciated with Xiphoid and said "You don't know what will hap
I and Xiphoid had exchanged messages and I have told him, "You never know about "LIFE" and may be one day, you....................." "I preferred not to disclose our conversation.".|
Xiphoid is a very smart man but as someone at age 24, 10 years after I first knew what schizphrenia was, I was accepted a scholarship to the best medical center---National Institute of Mental Health, National Institute of Health, Maryland to study mental illness.
I volunteered to be the "experimental mouse" and got the senior investigators to draw spinal and brain fluid from my spinal cord to compare with the schizophrenia patients.
I agreed to be on a special diet and take "sugar pills" and the schizphenic patients took the "experiemental drugs". I returned one more time to NIMH (National Institutes of Mental Health) but the experience was difficult even for a young doctor who was eager to learn !!
There were 24 schizophrenic patients and two volunteers and I was one of them as a "HUMAN SPECIMEN" for medical research ! (I did get paid, over $1,000)
Over the 35 years, I never saw one patient recovered !! I am sorry , Xiphoid, but I kept in touch with my Professor, many followed the "Drifting Down" effect to become homeless, some locked inside the mental institutions for life ( in and out of state mental institutions), some locked inside the prisons !!
I left psychiatry and I can NOT take it anymore and returned to internal medicine !!!
It was too much for me !!!!! I did not go to University of Michigan for training but went to Detroit and Michigan State University for trainings.
As I said to myself, what a small world, when I communciated with Xiphoid, I knew he was somewhere in Detroit !!! It turned out he and his wife were in Ann Arbor, Michigan !!!!!!!!
THERE WERE SEVERAL NEW DRUGS CAME OUT AND HAVE MUCH, MUCH LESS SIDE-EFFECTS, BUT I NEVER BELIEVE CLINICALLY CAN CURE THE DISEASE BUT CAN CONTROL THE SYMPTOMS ONLY !!
It is a time bomb and you never know when she will go into acute phase---------only if you were there to witness the gradiose delusions, the somatic delusion, the thought broadcasting, the delusions of persecution--the command halluncination, the catatonic posturing !
At the end, nothing can save her and she remained in and out of the mental institutuions for over 60 times and stayed at home as a "prisoner".
Fortunately, my brother was able to support her. They never got a divorce but had two beautiful children.
Xiphoid, never give up. Joanne, the little girl who was born in CHINA became a CPA accountant and also gave birth to a wonderful boy, now two years old, just returned back from CHINA during the Spring Festival with her two years old. The son is graduating in computer science.
So when looking back, the marriage survived but suffered severe pain and there was no "love" between my brother and my sister-in-law.
My brother fell out of "love" with my sister-in-law and had a secret relationship with his secretary for over 30 years !! What a tragic story !
So when I communicated with Xiphoid, He did not know life is more than a mountain , up and down and I am sorry to tell you, "SOME MARRIAGE MAY NOT WORK BUT THEY STAY TOGETHER FOR THE SAKE OF THE CHILDREN !!!"