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A Cage

Popularity 2Viewed 460 times 2017-2-14 03:41 |System category:Life| Lotr, Czech, MayanCulture


      In the film of <The Lord of The Rings>, Eowyn, the great princess of Rohan, has once said, “I feel neither death nor harm, but a cage.” It just touched me so much when I watched it yesterday again, it seems so amazing that every time I can get something new from this epic film.

      By the restraint from my age and my guardian, I couldn’t do many things which I would do now. Here who is writing this article, is a persona of a calm and quiet Chinese girl, but inside it hides the heart of challenging and adventures. Nothing can block my life or my dream, this was what I thought before, maybe quite the reason I chose to stay here and study in Prague. One year ago, a heart full of confidence and perseverance has been struck so hard by the actual life.

       I am not a pessimist. I am very open to people I could communicate with, but my shyness would show in front of people who would be hard to communicate with, like language problems.

       Wandering along the peaceful streets in Prague always reminds me, how confident I was last year. With my dearest friend being aside, I told him my plans for future and studying alone here. He said me that it was very brave for my age, and quite crazy also. What I have answered was that I was afraid of nothing at all and I will do it.

       A cage, a cage of cruelness of human heart, a cage of difficulties of legal process, a cage of being forced to do something I wouldn’t like at all, has given me pressures every day and every breathe. What’s more, beholding the rudeness to your own country from wiseacre makes me sick. I know every footstep I am taking now, is only to grow stronger, thus I struggle for a happy life for myself.

       Only I am not happy at all now. I am so glad that I have got one so sweet and good friend from my class, we talk every day and sit together, we laugh so hard and make awful jokes which only we would understand. We are so lonely and both standing out of our class, there are much more people who are also standing out of our class group, but we two are most alike, according to me. I can feel that she is struggling with herself every moment in heart, and so am I. But I just can’t find the feeling of being really happy, it sometimes flies away from my sight, but sometimes comes back to embrace me.

       Even though, I always smile. I always smile when I feel I want to, but it doesn’t mean it’s a memory that would become a real happiness in my life, and I have lost it now. What are holding me on now, are only the old memories and the endless imaginations of my future.

       Broken bones grow stronger.

       I had expected for so long time for my 9 days spring holiday which has just pasted yesterday. I planned where to go, I struggled for my travelling plans to other countries or other cities in the Czech Republic, but because my age is not old enough to do all decisions by myself, and have no right partners to travel with. They were all gone like the flowing water, and get killed in my bleeding heart. At last I have spent almost every day 8 hours staying in Cáfe and writing my novel without rest, and also went to the cinema for about three times along to fulfill my pale life.

      My novel, has been existed in my head for almost three years, I had started a little long time ago, but then has given up. By the late designing of the structure, finally I have the power and confidence to write it down again. It’s about my beloved Mayan Culture, based on an history that how a Spanish priest has destroyed this mysterious culture with 100 soldiers beside in year 1562. Thus a storyline of previous and present life, about how a man wants to change his fate just to protect who he loves, about how a girl has grown up after so many darkness surrounding and a hopeless dream. After my non-resting work, part of the story has been finished. A part full of blood and darkness, lies and trust, dream and fact, has been written.

       When I see it now, I can so easily touch the pain from myself which I have pulling them in this tragic story. A cruel story with incredible children’s simplicity and naive hopes, has appeared. With my hope for life, it stands out with me, gives me power to struggle still.

       I am still in the cage, but I believe, that one day it will break.

       It will definitely break.

 

                                         2017.2.13

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Reply Report Liononthehunt 2017-2-14 13:33
Life in some sense is like a constant effort to break cages. When you break out of a cage, there is a larger one looming over you, which may be sturdier, and harder to break...be anticipatory and prepared for challenges that will surely be coming your way, then you will have a better chance of getting on top of things throughput your life. Good luck, gal.
Reply Report HailChina! 2017-2-15 10:36
Billy Corgan sang - "Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage."

I have never read any Tolkien and I have never watched any if the LOTRO movies. I have never been particularly interested in fantasy books ( I did read the Terry Brooks Magic Kingdom series and I liked them. And I have read a Pratchet book called Equal Rites and I liked it too ) and the LOTRO fans annoy me and I don't want to be associated with them in any way shape or form and that is why I have avoided the LOTRO movies. The nationalism of the LOTRO fans is something that I want no part of. It seems such a pathetic nationalism to me. I actually know some guys that play the LOTRO MMO online and I try not to hold it against them but the reality is that I do.

Billy Corgan sang - "And what do I get, for my pain? Betrayed desires. And a piece of game". It is all most people get in life isn't it? Betrayed desires and a piece of game. And a lot of these LOTRO types don't even get a piece of game. Which is pretty sad isn't it? I feel bad for them. I do not believe that their LOTRO nationalism makes things any easier for them. Most of these LOTRO types make a piece of game seem pretty good hey.

The sad thing is that most people seem to be satisfied with a piece of game. It is all they want.
Reply Report 阿薰烤肉w 2017-2-17 19:51
Liononthehunt: Life in some sense is like a constant effort to break cages. When you break out of a cage, there is a larger one looming over you, which may be sturdi ...
Thanks so much:)
Reply Report 阿薰烤肉w 2017-2-17 20:00
HailChina!: Billy Corgan sang - &quot;Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage.&quot;

I have never read any Tolkien and I have never watched any if th ...
Hi, I am glad that you have given such a different idea. What you have said in the text, I could understand, even though I have never played any LOTRO game. What I really love is those books and films from Tolkein, because it always tells me some truths that I need to admit and to see more clearly for this world. I am not that kind of person who hold a naturalism with it, but I admit that it is, and it will be my favorite. Some people may truly is just for a game, maybe that is the exact cause why they like LOTRO, but for me it is not a game. I respect this work from this great autor, thats it.
Reply Report HailChina! 2017-2-18 08:09
阿薰烤肉w: Hi, I am glad that you have given such a different idea. What you have said in the text, I could understand, even though I have never played any LOTRO ...
Hello. Sorry, I wasnt saying that you were pathetic. I hope it didnt come out like that. The whole fandom of the Lord of the Rings people just bothers me is all I mean. I will read the books one day and I am sure I will like them. I was actually meaning to read The Hobbit around the time the first Lord of the Rings movie came out but decided to put it off.

These fan people are a bit overboard a lot of the time. Thats all I meant. (: Not you.
Reply Report HailChina! 2017-2-21 18:13
阿薰烤肉w: Hi, I am glad that you have given such a different idea. What you have said in the text, I could understand, even though I have never played any LOTRO ...
The main reason I commented on your blog was because I share your thought about being caged.

Your book sounds interesting btw.
Reply Report 阿薰烤肉w 2017-2-24 19:14
HailChina!: The main reason I commented on your blog was because I share your thought about being caged.

Your book sounds interesting btw.
Thank you:)

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  • A Cage 2017-2-24 19:14

    HailChina!: The main reason I commented on your blog was because I share your thought about being caged.

    Your book sounds interesting btw.
    Thank you:)

  • A Cage 2017-2-21 18:13

    阿薰烤肉w: Hi, I am glad that you have given such a different idea. What you have said in the text, I could understand, even though I have never played any LOTRO ...
    The main reason I commented on your blog was because I share your thought about being caged.

    Your book sounds interesting btw.

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